Will they?

When I cross a busy road,
When I watch movies alone in the theater,
When I go to hospital alone,
When my phone rings and I know it's not you,
When I am hungry and I don’t feel like eating,
When I no longer get angry, knowing that nobody can harm me as much as you did,
When someone hits me and I no longer feel like hitting back,
When someone shows care and affection,
When everything hurts but I don’t feel anything,
When I am tired of being strong,
When I can’t hate you more,

It’s only sometimes that I search for you,
It's only when I search for you, do I realize “dead won’t come back, will they?”